My Awesome Daughter Lorie!!!
My most fondest memory of you as a little girl is when you stretched your little arms out and said, MOMMY UP…That was your way of wanting me to pick you up and love on you..Those big blue eyes, and that bald little head…How could I resist such a tempting offer!!!
I remember my visits with you and Jamie and how special the two of you made me feel…I will never forget it…And of course, Jamie will always hold a piece of my heart…Another memory I hold dear is when you and Jamie came to Florida, and you two would dance with each other, when we went out…I LOVED TO WATCH THE TWO OF YOU…When I see you and you give me a hug, I feel you mean it, or when you hold my hand, you make me feel so worthy… Nothing you say or do goes un-noticed, whether its for me or someone else…You have the ability to turn a dark day, and brighten it for me…If I could catch the moon I would gladly give it to you….Please never lose sight of how special you are to me..
First let me say how proud of you I am…You have grown into a beautiful woman both inside and out..I know I have fell short of your expectations at being your mom..I don’t even know where to begin to apologize to you for that… I had become so caught up in my world Lorie, that I forgot you have feelings too..In my own mixed up mind, I thought you were fine and didn’t need me anymore…I’m sure because of my actions, I caused you some emotional damage..I know you depended on me to always be there for you, and I managed successfully to let you down.. I missed out on so much of your life…I will forever regret that..I hope some day you will forgive me for my short comings..I’m proud of the fact that you were not afraid to stick to your beliefs, to not follow the majority when the majority are wrong… to follow your chosen path, to enter into a relationship with someone worthy of yourself, to love this person with your whole heart… What I admire about you is, that you have your own ideas and thoughts, and refuse to allow anyone to sway you, to their way of thinking… If I have provided you with an insight into any of these things then I have succeeded (hopefully) as your mom…. One thing I am sure of , I have taught you to be proud of who you are, and that I have loved you every second of your life.. I have tried to support you at all times, and as your mom, I will always continue to Cherish and love everything about you my beautiful daughter…I wish I could go back in time for just one day, to maybe say that one thing or do that one thing to have you see how much I love you…I need you in my life to be my daughter… God put you with me for a reason… Nothing ever prepared me for the overwhelming love I have for you… When I first cuddled that beautiful, soft, warm, sweetsmelling baby girl in my arms, I knew I had fallen in love for the rest of my life… I also knew that, forevermore, I would live knowing fear, knowing worry, and knowing that my heart could and would be broken ….Even though you are my second daughter, the doctor told me you were perfect in every way possible, for me that was truly a huge relief, considering all the problems with Cherie when she was born, I was so afraid …
My daughter, I am so glad you are my child…
I m amazed at your integrity, and your sense of responsibility… I realized that you give me the privilege to participate in your life…
I was not able to talk with my mother about my feelings growing up.. I dealt with alot of issues on my own, so I did not have a pattern to follow… I spent so much of your childhood worrying about doing the right thing that I sometimes forgot to simply enjoy you… I made so many mistakes I wish I could rectify….
I also was a daughter, but a daughter who would never have considered her mother a source of comfort or wisdom… I did not seek my mother’s advice, I did not tell her anything I did… I could not depend on her advice… She could not comfort me when I needed it…
So, I am completely overwhelmed by your trust in me when you just want to talk… The fact that you want to talk to me about things in your life humbled me…
I never knew that feeling for my mother…
Thank you my beautiful Lorie, for letting me mother you… It’s the greatest privilege I can be given….
In these past few years, I am so appreciative for the kindness you have shown to me, when I feel I was not deserving of it… Being your mom, I certainly have , and still have issues, but you looked past that, and loved me anyway…Thank you for seeing me not only as your mom but also as an imperfect human, capable of making many mistakes and having many failures…It takes a special person to see past all the imperfections and love me anyway…I had few people in my life that except me for who I am…Again thank you!!!
I will forever be grateful for the generosity that you and Johnny showed to your brother and his family, not to mention what you did for me, to see all you guys together, truly touched me.. It took you to do that…Its a memory that will be with me forever…Thank You my Dear Daughter!!!!
Children learn so much from their parents, but let me tell you my sweet daughter, I have learned so much from you: Compassion and forgiveness, being top of the list.. Know this my beautiful Lorie, you will forever hold a special place in my heart, and because of the way you treat others, I’m sure they feel you have touched their hearts in ways you may never know…So many times I have sat back and seen your generosity to others, and watch as you sit back and make no notice of yourself…Never sell yourself short!!! You are an extraordinary woman..
In your life quest, I hope that you reach for the stars and settle for the moon!!!
You are so deserving of everything good, that comes your way…I cant tell you enough how amazing you are, and how important you are in my life, and how very special you are in every one Else’s life….
Take this thought with you today and always, I am so glad that you are my daughter.. If you ever have the urge to stretch out your arms for a big hug from your mom, I promise I’ll be there!!! Always stay true to yourself, my beautiful little girl….Always remember!!! I loved you first!!! MOM…
